Time to fess up / Can you help me?

This is a bit of a rant but please hear me out:

When I first started this page, I was very confused and for the most part never sent pics of my "real" self out because I was afraid people would find out I was a guy...

At the time I was living with my girlfriend of 2 years and I thought I was gay or something but not sure. This was problematic because up to this point in my life I was taught that anything other than being straight was bad and self damning (I still loved my gf tho so I was very confused) I don't know why I set this blog up to be what it really is (now that I look back I think it was my inner self trying to escape in a perverse way)

After some things I'd much rather not talk about happened I started trying to discover who I am and that's when I found a word to place on my feelings and that word was 'transgender' - as soon as I read up on it I went to a local therapist and have been going back for little over 3 years now and if my life shapes up soon I might be able to become who I really am on the inside.

If anyone wants to talk please message me I'll be more than happy to talk if you are kind.

I do have a gofundme set up but I don't know if I should link it because I don't wanna get harassed.

Let me know if you could donate any small amount though - it's to help my body become itself.